Hello Guys!
I am finally blogging again.. I have been busy yet again. Doing what you ask? Well, let me tell ya, Since I have last blogged (or vlogged for that matter) I have been in the most incredible funk yet. Depression almost had me because of the negativity that was in my house. Thankfully after much toil and tears the middle child has once again moved out. and taken all her worldly possessions with her including and not regretfully her animals.
There is nothing like living with your adult children I can assure you. holy cow. Especially if one of the parents is not on the same page with you about how to deal with said child. Well let's not dwell on that too long. Lets just say that it is better that she live in her own home due to the fact that our lifestyles do not on any level mesh. Nuff said.
Then there is this job I settled for. I flew out of the frying pan into the fryer on that one. I am still there in body but only because I get some modicum of paycheck but not truly enough to pay the bills and buy food. The boss continuously sends us home early and has me off on Mondays which is not entirely a bad thing since now I can at least look for something more substantial. Also, I can try to do what I was trying to do before which was get my freelance gig going.
I have over 2 months of vlogs to edit and post because in my depression have been busy controlling the 1 thing I can control which is cleaning the house. My go to obsession when things are going particularly crappy.
So that about brings us up to the present. I have been trying to get the baby child ready for college. I have been letting her do most of it herself because she needs to learn to do things like this herself. but as always I am there for her if she needs it and at least she recognizes when she is floundering and will ask (reluctantly) for help.
Then there is the man child, my oldest. He is now a father. :D Which in turn officially makes me a grammy! I am eternally grateful and happy for he and his lovely wife for this. Even tho they live 20 hours away and I am too broke to go see the baby. I keep praying for a miracle of some sort to make the money flow to allow me the ability to make the trip. Also to allow me the career to provide me the time to make the trip.
Which brings us to the present. I am now finally in a good place to start the endeavor once again only thins time with the back up financial aspect of having a traditional job to lean on so I don't scuttle the boat. In addition to getting my freelance gig going I am also working on self improvement by way of the 21 day fix. it has been successful so far. (lost 6 pounds so far) easy peasy to follow tho the last couple days have been a partial bust. I am positive and have my family behind me on this.
it is my goal to have lost most of the 20 pounds I have gained over the last 5 years gone by Christmas. We shall see how it goes..
Love you guys!
